HAPPY BIRTHDAY POR XIN RONG! :D

i will miss all the times we spent in lab doing experiments for stp and gl-ing lizhihao tgt and imitating his arrr and -.- look.
damn funny!
great times. (:

happy birthday, dun lame anm, grow up alr. :D
wooohooo~ must rmbr our thai express date with lizhihao too! :D

wed used to be one of my fav day of the week..
now?
i'll really be lying if i stl say tat.

today lessons were boring.
tired like zz
i dun like teachers who tap on ure shoulders when you are slping in cls.
ure lesson so boring, i so tired, so ofc slp lor.

ok nvm..
today geog test was ok..
but nornie scam us!
-.-
told us mostly on features then i go spam then end up only 6 out of 17 features.
-.-
win la, thx alot nornie.
thn others all got to rely on my past mye knowledge.
which i have long thrown away.

chem assesment was ok.
seems like somebody didnt stay up late for nothing to help me. (:
very late mehs, 11 plus only.
-.-

oh and i heard wad happened in hist.
walao laura khoo very gu yi sia.
lucky i dun take hist. :D

okkk...
i'm like super tired now.
been slping past one everyday.
i feel like crap.
-.-

zzzzz
im not gonna say anything abt parade today.

ok mabe i am, just abit.
-.-

helped evania with 4310 till keejeng came.
quite ok la.
-.-
scolding ppl makes me feel like super bad.
zzzzz

ok then pt.
wadeva ok.
yaya.
srsly.

thn aftr tat we did pumpings.
270.
-.-
win.
did 30 tgt and then the rest circuit.
quite fun.
i missed doing pumpings with 4108.

ok nvm i'll go do my homework now.
ITS PILING UP! -.-
damn.

ok lol.
i wont give in so easily.
i wont give up so easily.

for when i give up, im not only giving up on myself.
im giving up on his hope,
giving up on all the hope he pinned on me.
giving up on all the efforts he took to help me.
giving up on everything he did for me.
giving up on everything he wants me to be.

oh?
so you do care?
okay, im very surprised speckled with a lil bit of shock now.

its tough.
its tough hanging on when every nerve in your body is screaming for you to give up.
its tough hanging on when everyone no longer believes in you and all they know is you are doing badly now.

its tough ok?
nobody told me that its going to be easy,
BUT NOBODY TOLD ME THAT ITS GOING TO BE THIS HARD EITHER!

they only know how to stand ard and say you are so kelian.
i dont need your pity ok?
i never did and will never need that.

tell me to hang on.
tell me not to give up.
tell me that i once believed that nothing is impossible.
remind me of all these whenever i feel like giving it up..

yes,
now its both.
both things i used to be great in are now challenging and making my life hard.

idk la.
and damn him.
zz
you promised to be there to listen to me when i need you.
and where the hell are you now.
ya right.
thx alot.
again, i dun need your empty promises.

yes, ok.
i have to buck up.
and be stronger.

keep the faith.
and believe that yes, Karhui CAN do it.

ok lol.
this kind of positive thinking dk which cutie teach me one.
-.-
lets hope that it works..

i will show you.
i will be strong.
i will not cry.
& i'll prove it to you that you are wrong.

ok wadeva la.
sry blog, i wrote too much here.
i will private it soon.

when hating becomes indifference, there is no turning back.