friday went to the floating platform and rehearse.
it was the first preview.
audience super not enthu.
:/
make me shout till my voice hoarse and my throat pain they give me the -.- face.
nvm..

today was special.
tonight is special..
very.

i'll rmbr 310710 for the rest of my life.
haha.

(:
ok tats all.
bye peeps.

I try my best to expect the worst so that I won't be disappointed,
but there's a part of me that always stays hopeful.
So I end up being disappointed anyway.

disappointment.

yet another one.
how many more?
i bet lots.

today was fine.
and it turned sucky.
zz

pe was fun.
floorball.
Denise sprained her ankle.
get well soon!

hcl test was damn zz today.
i think stl ok..
i can guess the meaning.
but for more than 50% of the Qs, i guessed the answers.
idk la.
zz

then english.
Mr Chiong's first lesson.
he quite ok la.
so nervous.

went for recess.
i hate thursday recess.
got to change then eat.
waste of time and the queue is epic-ly long.
only managed to eat waffle.
no way im going to gobble down my food and choke again like last week.
-.-

then yea.
assembly.
interesting i guess.
the edc quite drama.
oh well they are drama club ppl.
then the rest boring.
-.-

then math.
at cr 17.
now im loving math lessons.
he's so slack!
and i can slp and msg for all i want.
-.-
and yet learn.
he teach at a damn slow pace, unlike puayhoon.

ok lunch was damn zz.
nvm.
its not the first time wad, nth surprising.

then yea.
translation was pretty fun.
we had a competition.
Lijie Ruonan Huishi Sherralin Liyin Zhihui Junwei Fred Chang Sheng and me in one grp.
then yea.
we leading most of the time.
smart ppl.
LOL

i nvr bin cao cao ok.
-.-
ok fine, but mabe just a lil.
and im left wondering why it's me who feels like im the one to blame.
zz

i fail at disappoinment managment. -.-
nvm.

even my mum said nth to me when she fetched me aftr sch.
i guess my face is really black like thunder or sth.
but yea.
its brewing up a storm inside.
zz

i just hate disappointment.
HATE DISAPPOINTMENT.
plainly hate those freaking disappointed feeling.

its like the feeling you get when ure heart sinks into ure shoes.
its like the feeling, watching your anticipations turning into dust.
its not a nice feeling, its not a happy feeling.
not at all.
its a sucky feeling,
making you feel like life is against you.
feeling like crap and feeling like slapping the next person who dares to provoke you.
-.-

thx for making me happy... for nothing.
dammit.
why does life have to be so unfair.
i hate it when you dun sms me first.
i hate it when you are feeling moody and refused to tell me.
i hate it when you break off a date w/o a reason.
i hate it when you gimme one word answer.
i hate it when you dun say hi to me or smile at me when u are with ure frens.
i hate it when you dunno when im pissed at you.
i hate it when you do nth when im pissed at you.
most of all, i hate it when you disappoint me.
sometimes, i just need you to show that you care, a lil more.

only the one that hurts you can make you feel better.
only the one that inflicts the pain can take it away.

ok nvm.
i btr go finish my homework and stop slacking.
my mum is srsly going to kill me if i give her crappy results in ct2 again.
-.-
thx alot mum.
-.-

i dun like studying.
i dun feel happy when im studying.
but for the sake of my future,
for the sake of my parents,
and for the sake of not disappointing him,
i will.
study.
study real hard. (srs!)
and be real good. (jk -.-)

ok nvm.
i'll go make mushroom soup for myself ltr.
-.-
or find some ramen instant noodle to eat.
-.-
to make me happy and cheer me up.
nvm.

i guess im a just bad, too-demanding, unreasonable girl.
):

nvm.
bye.

its tiring being angry at someone you love so much, very very tiring.

ok im damn pissed with studying the stupid chen2 yu3.

all i can say is.
the chinese dept is really mad.
crazy.
bonkers.

nvr spare a thought for us.
think we too free nth to do.
not like we will be tested in o's.
-.-

and pls la ask us learn so many in so lil days.
effective meh?
brainless.
-.-

and also,
look at the amt of crazy words we got to learn for ct2 and the stupid shu2 yu3.
srsly.
they dun use their brains to think.
-.-

ppl alr hate chinese so much stl make us learn so many in so lil days.
so smart.
now i hate chinese even more.

ok nvm.
wadeva la.

sucky.
unreasonable.
brainless.

zz
ok nvm.
byeeeeeeeee.

heyy peeps.

yep.
today was ok la.
nth much.

morn assembly did the dumb acres thingy.
and most of the ppl presenting today were 303 ppl!
coolio! ;D

not much happened today..
just that Mr Lu is as funny as ever.
math lessons are now hilarious and laughable.
but we dun really learn everything..
oh well, nth is perfect.
tats the total opposite of puayhoon's lessons.

ya sad la.
my mum dun lemme go. :/
nvm lol i'll squeeze out time this week to go out. -.-

anws.
tumblr is addictive.
LOL

ok, actually.
abusing somebody's acc and posting crap is addictive.
my fingers are itching to post more. (:

ok lol.
nth much.
idk why im blogging.

seeing your name popping up on my screen happens almost everyday,
but it never fails to make me smile, everytime.

anws.
today i was reading this book, ok its a teen fiction.
you know those mushy fairytale ending kind.
yea.
it was nice.
and tat bf was super romantic or sth.
leaving random gifts for that girl in her bag, pencil case, in btwn her books, in her locker etc.
so sweet rite.
and even buying her flowers. D:
i think almost all girls are total suckers for flowers. :D

i didnt know that cathy cassidy is such a romantic.
or her bf is.
either way.
her books are cool!

next week gonna be flooded with tests.
damn.
seems like cant go out to play on saturday even if im free. D:
mmm go out study. -.-
ewww.

random prezzie always makes my day.
call it materialistic or wadeva.
but it shows that someone cares.
someone cares enough to make you happy, to bring a smile on ure face.
last time some sweetie used to put white buenos in my locker randomly.
and i'll try eating during lesson time. :D

mum say i shld stop eating too many chocolates.
so nowadays she seldom buys me chocs, and i got to buy myself.
this sucks. D:

ok i've no idea why im talking crap here.
i'll go now.
tadaaaa~

heyyoooo.

today was  (:

first period bio.
was ok.
lizhihao is a great teacher. :Ds

then 3 period english.
elaine chng made us do timed prac.
i wanted to ask for early recess, but then decide not to.
she's elaine chng. -.-
then she released us 5 mins late.
and i was like zzzzz im hungryyyyyyy.

then was recess!
queue was super long.
had to eat damn fast.
coz aftr recess pandian.

phy spa.
nth much la.
then was chem.
chem mole test.
the mcq quite tricky.
other than that stl ok..

then lunch.
did oral comm.. abit.
then i got taptap! :D

then amath.
puayhoon went away alr.
so we had one Mr Lu.
omg man he's like..
slack like ...
and we were laughing tgt and joking ard under his nose.
plus i was smsing and playing.
and so many ppl were slping.
and he didnt even care.
-.-

puayhoon pls come back asap.
-.-
dun make 303 die again like wad happened when u left us with that super fab and awesome xiang.
-.-

anws.
i dun find tumblr a good blog.
cant really write much there..
but its easy to post photos quotes and stuffs.
and i like it.
stl trying to find a nice skin aftr so long.
tumblr really got no nice skins.
-.-

but yep.
try looking for my tumblr.
(:
nice one ok.
i didnt post much there actually.
LOL

ya.
waited in cls for him and went out for lunch at like 4.30
-.-
ended up talking and being gl by some stupid guys. -.-
stupid Junwei. ):
and Zhihui.
-.-
dont think u so blackish tanned i scared ok.
-.-

went to pizza hut.
the dessert fail. -.-
the wad chocolate cake is acutally some muffin.
and it tasted weird.
-.-
but the ice cream is nice.
vanilla ice-cream.
ya and yes.
ice creams always make me happy.
-.-

haha and i met peix and glenda worr. :D
so qiao hor peix.
LOL

im happy so long as im not feeling hungry.
so long as im full.
-.-
even my mum says that. D:
make me sound like some pig. -.-

tmrw got some stupid acres crap thingy.
and im supposed to present.
mann, wasson asked me to be high.
i'll sound like some freaking nan hua speaks ppl..
im so not going to do that.
i'll just be good and nice and normal. -.-

im trying to make tumblr for some ppl.
-.-
who is like super lazy and ask me make.
ok lorrrr.
make me crack my head for a name to put, again.

this week all booked.
zz
i want to go out. :/
unfairzxcv.

ok now my mood suddenly turns bad.. again.
zz
ok nvm.

i know that life isnt fair, but it doesnt make it any easier to accept. :/

nvm lor....
zzzzzzzzzzzz

ok wadeva.
bye peepos.
i'll go play with tumblr now.

cause when i think of you, i dont feel so alone.

ok.

this week is a horrible sucky week.
FML.
i hate this week.

ytd was yog rehearsal.
boring waste of time.
but quite fun.
gate 1 ppl.
bus 1 even more fun.
LOL
ba gua xing wen tai.
-.-
haha.
didnt manage to do homework.
but quite fun, and i laughed like some mad woman according to some ppl.
well, i was happy ok?
jiawen is srsly.
LOL
haha.
anws the dinner sucks.
the supper was btr.
cake and cookie.

i partnered with mok.
actually mok is an ok guy when we not working tgt.
next week im going to be like him and bring loads of junk food there.
-.-

ytd was Chiewling's bdae.
we celebrated in sch bfr yog.
and Zhihui was damn sweeeeeet!
oh well, its her bdae.
it doesnt kill to be nice rite.
and he is really a nice guy.
(;
way to go, Zhuihui!

anws.
today was sucky like shit.
PUHLEASE!
ok nvm i'll talk abt the carnival tmrw.
all i can say is,
we shld really re-elect our cls comm ppl.
and i was the only one who said that.

pissed like zz.
then yea.
and i lost my uss pin!
dammit.
zzzzz
that pin really mean alot to me.. to us?
idk.
i loved it alot alot.
zz
i was like looking for it frantically.
i got down the bus and went back to the mrt..
but it wasnt thr.
zzzz
then Ruonan went back to clementi cc to look for it.
THANKS ALOT RUONAN!
but its stl not there.
sorry...
now i feel all those holes on my crumpler and i feel like crying.
zzzz
my pin.
haiz.
)):

anws i think i mentioned this bfr.
but me and Ruonan really clicked off well.
damn well.
we have this same kind of mindset.
and we have loads in common.
haha.(:

i was damn pissed today..
coz of someone.
and those ppl in the carnival.
ok but srsly.
i wasnt angry coz he pangseh me.
i was angry coz its the second time this week.
-.-
and yea.
lots of things la.

damn irritated.
i reached home so late ytd and woke up so early today.
i slept for less than 5 hours and u stl want to complain abt the timing the yog ppl are meeting.
and then u ureself were late too.
wtfh.
ask all the yog ppl dun go carnival la.
then we all go home slp btr.
zz

anws.
i know i acted like some spoilt brat today to him.
sorry ok.
i woke up feeling irritated and saw an even more irritating msg.
-.-
zz
but i know i shldnt have been liddat.
sry la.
i know you wont be reading this, but yea.
zz

and next time.
instead of go on, can you say sth else.
-.-
say sth nice can?
-.-
say sth that makes me feel btr instead of sth that makes me feel like punching you.
zz

ok there wont be a next time, probably.
next time im in a bad mood, i wont tell.
-.-
i will just kp my mouth shut.

wadeva.
i feel like crap now.
i want to sleep and not care abt anything.
i hate this.
zzzzzz

i feel like i am very dependent on my blog to rant when im feeling bad, moody, pissed, sad, disappointed.
zz

oh well.
this week sucks alot.
with all these.
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

i poked my finger just now.
poked + pierce.
wadeva la.
its bleeding like crap for 5 mins alr.
stl haven stop.
stupid.

oh and.
im not trying to be sarcastic, im being realistic.
nothing last forever. -.-
srsly.
forever??
its such a long time.
dont be so ready to promise, like i said.
yea dun take it to heart.
but be realistic la.

haiz.
zz
ok wadeva.
i dun want to care la. ):

im tired.
i want to sleep.
and never wake up again.

stop blaming me for everything.
im telling you now.
now.

zzzzzzz
i feel like ..................
nvm.

i almost threw plushie. -.-
damn, luckily i didnt.

zzzzzz tummyacheeee. :/
pain pain.
zz
wadeva.
this day is just starting to get worse.

sucky friday.

while everyone was going TGIF,
i was like -.-
right, fridays rock ttm. zz

today sucks.
totally.

ok.
i look fierce, pissed, angry, sad, wdv.
but.
zz

my tummy painn! ):
damn pain pls.
zz

ok, tats really sucky enough.
enough to add to my alr very sucky day.
damn.

zz
ok nvm.

math was sianzxcv.
puayhoon going away till idk when to recruit prcs scholars.
-.-
wth.

then pe.
floorball!
did passing and stuffs.

then physics.
damn.
yes.
flunk tat stupid test alr.

recess.
zz
even eating ice cream didnt help.
but its nice.
damn nice.
or mabe i just like vanilla.

zz then was chem.
ms wasson divide us into diff grps.
ppl who can do mole are non-existant.
me and Lijie were doing tgt.
then Lijie asked for permission to go toilet wasson was like.
"yes yes go you all are non existant"
and continue teaching those who did badly for the pop quiz.
and we were like.
with all those prcs there.
yaya.
they learn bfr in china, wadeva.

then bio spa.
ok la nth much.
eat into lunch.
-.-
then ss.
fpsp.

fine yea.
boring day.
then bus-ed to mrt with Ruonan.
we took 183.. :/
on the mrt i saw a girl slping on her bf's shoulder. it reminds me of him so much.. i feel weird, so weird... as if a part of me is missing..
oh yea dun emo abt ure position.  i think its stl damn good.
yea..
nth much.
tummy stl very pain.
damn.
zz

idw go rehearsal tmrw.
wad crap audience ldrs.
more like saikang leaders.

the only good thing abt it is tat it will look good on our resume..
wadeva..

idc la.
bye.

wth.
wads wrong??

cant u just say, for goodness sake.
everytime im in a bad mood u make me tell u everything.
now i ask u and u keep quiet.
u good.

zz
just say la.
walao why liddat.
zz
i want to study for my physics one ok.
zz

dont make life difficult for me can??

and if there's really any misunderstandings, shldnt they be cleared up too?
zz

ya making me worry makes u happy rite.
fine lor.

wadeva la.
do as u deem fit.

if u dw to say everything, at least tell me wad it is abt can?

wdv.
im not giving a damn anymore.

do as u deem fit boy.
i dun care.
wadeva,

now.
im giving up on physics.
i need my beauty sleep.
zz

fml, my life sucks now. zz

sometimes I wish I were a little kid again, skinned knees are easier to fix than broken hearts.

today was.
i like! :D
thursdays are the best day of the week,
and today just got btr coz of sth. (:

ya.
anws.
morning was cep.
sex ed.
we went to hall.
ok la all those usual stuffs.
and they showed us how to use a condom.
ok lol i didnt know how to use until they showed us the video.
pretty interesting i guess?
and i just realised that Ruonan is super pure.
which is like a good thing i think.
haha.

hmmm.
then was pe.
crap.
eileen saw pms again.
make us do pt.
2 rounds ard the 2nd floor, suicide running and hopping and pumpings.
zz
not our fault we late wad its the cep runs late.

then was hcl.
boring lesson.
i was like half asleep.
and msging some ppl.
and llf call my name.
nowadays she starts to love my name alot.
-.-
oh wait, everyone loves my name.
Karhui is a nice name.
even my chinese name is nice lor. xD

one period el.
quite ok la.
we did speeches.
no offence, oral comm is a complete waste of time,
esp we have somebody in our group who refuses to work.
thanks alot man. -.-
but aiya.

hmmm then recess.
late coz we had to change.
then the councillors and caroline chua were asking us to eat faster.
they made me n Ruonan gobbled down our food in like 7 mins or sth.
-.-
then Ruonan choked.
then aftr tat cc ask us to eat faster and dun choke.
no diff lor.

then was assembly.
pretty interesting.
i think its quite sweet.
haha.
Ruonan was beside me and we were like ...
i just realised these days that we have lots in common. (:
haha.

hmm then was math..
ok la circles.
boring thou..

then lunch.
went to distribute the flyers thingy.
-.-

then was translation!
and benny ng was absent.
he gave us a worksheet, but frankly, who cares. -.-
then Lijie Huishi Ruonan me and tat guy started discussing abt the video thingy.
girls are efficient ppl. -.-
i love Lijie's sarcasm. LOL
ya then did more homework and listen to them tell us abt the cip thingy.

dun talk abt cip as if its a damn great deal and u are doing us a damn super great favour can.
for starters, i dun like animals.
and secondly, im not despo for those damn cip hours.
u say until liddat, who want to work and help u sia. -.-
say nicely can?
and be more organised and know what you are talking abt bfr telling us.
its confusing when one says this and the other says tat.
-.-

anws.
Mr Chiong, or however u spell his name, is the first relief teacher that gained my respect.
haha.
really.
he's like authoritive and nice at the same time.
and he's fair. (:

yep.
so my happy Thursday past just liddat.

then went to jp.
bus-ed there.
the 154 abit slow only. -.-
abit only.
and we saw Garrick's best fren. (:
haha and even sat the same bus as her.
so nice rite.
luckily there were seats when ppl got down the bus.
and ya you're damn lame and childish ard her sia.

reached jp at like 4. -.-
then went to japanese street to eat.
the ramen wasnt nice, at all.
-.-
but the egg yolk is nice! :D
haha.
in your face. :D
even their green tea, ocha, wasnt hot.
ok lol nvm at least some ppl eat until like damn full.
wad rice + ramen.
nice combo. (Y)

went round looking for bottles but found none. :/

your hands are like super cold. :0
very cold.
but i stl like.
LOL

能夠讓我微笑的人，在沒有誰比你有天分.....

sth is really bothering me..
shld i tell him if they refuse to tell him?
but by not telling him the truth, its so unfair to him.
but if he knows the truth, its really.. gg alr.
and will he even believe us...
idk lehs.

sometimes I wish I were a little kid again, skinned knees are easier to fix than broken hearts.

ok lol change the subject, lets change the subject.

yea.
i wonder why u didnt say anything when they ask u that question just now..
ok lol im just wondering..

okie im officially hungry now!
i'll go and have dinner and start my phy soon.

chem mole test was postponed but we stl have physics test.
wasson win alr.
but ok la.
at least one less to study.
no diff to me.

okie.
bye peeps! :D

there's a lie in believe..

hey.

yep.
today was..
hmm.

morning was the isd thingy.
funny lol.
we did from reading period then ate into lff one period.
then supposedly stl have on period left then we purposely ask alot of questions and stuffs.
then when we went back to cls, only left weih ard 15 mins. (Y)!!
then was math.
boring boring.

then was recess.
ahh the queue so long.
zz puayhoon everytime released us late, and i got sjab on wed.
no time to eat lor.
then bought waffles.

then went for geog.
took back geog test.
wth coz of the stupid river valley crap my A1 flew away. D:

then was ss.
ok lor.
nth much.

then was idk wad.
hmmm yes chem.
got back the pop quiz.
i shld have gotten 17 but wasson counted wrongly and gave me 16.
nvm lo not counted anws.
but yep.
ok im so glad i can do mole now.
thanks Garrick! :D
i love ure drilling sessions. -.-
rightttt.

oh i just rmbred fri got phy and chem mole test. :/
anws.
parade was ok.
yea.

at first pt was set at first set 20, second 25, third 15.
but yea.
they nvr shout lor.
most ppl. -.-
then no choice got to increase to 20.
i wanted to make it 30 but yea..
jane maam last parade with us.
abit sad.
zz
haiz.
and 4108 gave her sth. :D
we will miss you Jane Maam! ):/
even though i dont talk much to you during parades, your presence make me feel safer and there's someone who can help us if anything went wrong.
so sad.
pls come back and visit us real soon ok!
aiya too many stuffs cant talk abt them here.
restricted. D:

sometimes i wonder if you are doing that coz you really want to do so or if you are just letting me have my way and giving in to my every single demand.
idw tat.
im not that spoilt.
you really dont have to do that.
do whatever you want can, really really.
i just want you to be happy.
-.-


looks familiar?
hmm happy guessing wad it is. :D
be more observant la.. like me! :D

ok tats all.
byeeeeeeee. :D

you say it best, when u say nothing at all.


mmm.
today was o lvl listening compre.

hmmm.
morning was nth much.
ya.
boring phy. -.-
zz @ pandian.
nth much, boring.

then was geog!
slackish half hour nornie wasted the period scolding ppl.
i dun like the way she waste our one period.
smart yy stl holding on to my worksheet and frgt to bring it again, like again.
he loves it too much alr la.

then was hcl.
super interesting lesson as always.
llf was fuming over our hcl srp and compo which was due on monday..
LOL
well, i didnt do both..
but i managed to hand in srp today.
-.-

recess ate pocky!
strawberry pocky makes me happy.
ok kind of.

aftr recess was amath test.
stl ok la.
50 mins paper.
i finished it bfr the 50 min and had 15 min to slack and slowly check through.
ya got so start getting back my A1s.
like really, no time alr.
cant let ppl down again..

我是谁 你是否常常这样问自己
我是谁 总是活在别人的期望里
我是谁 是谁又擅自帮你定义了
你是谁 只有不是自己才安全


为 什麽 你以为这个世界很美丽
为什麽 你爱这个世界胜过爱自己
为什麽 这个世界不给你平等待遇
为什麽 到底做错了什麽


ya.
dismissed at 1200.
meet him at GO and we went lunch-ing tgt.

took 183 to imm.
long bus ride. (:
at first there was no seat.
then at clementi mrt suddenly everyone got down and we can pick and choose.
was stl deciding wad to eat on the bus. -.-

reached at ard 1300.
then went to subway.

sat at the 4 person table.
didnt work at all. -.-
i gobbled down my food.
ok, kinda.
i ate pretty fast, compared to last time.
and i dun like ppl staring at me eat.
esp not some ppl lor.

was staring at the anderson's ice cream commercial just beside subway.
ahhhh.
so tempted.
zz.
but ok fine.
i wont eat so much cold stuffs.
yea.
i know i know..
suddenly got this craving for cakes too.
:D

ya.
then went back at ard 1345.
waited for 188 for 15 mins.
and it finally came.
like zzzz
and it was raining. (Y)
-.-

dunno whose fault lor.
everytime you go imm with me, or rthr i go imm with u,
it will rain!
-.-
srsly.
and everytime we will frgt that dumb umbrella.

but ya.
lonooooong bus ride back. (:
:D
then he walked to sch with me.
it was raining but ya.
thx ar sacrificed ure jacket for me. :D
haha im so happy to know that you like me btr than ure jacket. -.-

reached 303 pretty early and we went to 401 for lc with lijie and ruonan.
quite easy.
and it was boring.
makes me sleepy.
:0
then aftr tat mum came to fetch me and went homeeeeee.

i love ure heartbeat sia. (:
but you got like no heartbeat.
i can only hear it like once.

woohooo.
i want go buy my water bottle and jacket.
and he wants his water bottle and wallet.
yes i want to go asap. :D

ya.
got to chiong hcl zuo wen or tmrw llf will go mad.
zz
oh and math.
and oh.
srp by tmrw too.
greeeeat. -.-
oh got full u to prepare too!
and boots to polish.
yes must rmbr my pt kit and command rank.
long long list. -.-

tmrw got parade...
idk.

woohooo!
the pin looks nice on my bag.
very nice. :DD
and on Garrick's bag too.
cause someone put it for him. (:
ok yep.
i'll go and do these now till 11.30 (:

im so in love with your bony shoulder. (L)
but i love your hands more. (:

USS 170710! :D

yep, went to uss with Garrick last sat.
had a great day there! :D
check out those pics we took there! (:
more on my fb album.

hmm yea.
met at like 10 plus at gombak mrt and trained to vivo.
ok i frgt my sd card.
win rite?
i brought my camera and left the card in my lappie.
-.-
yep, genius princess.
-.-
so went to buy,
took like idk how long.
30 mins?
deciding lunch and decided to go eat at ramenplay outside uss.
not i decide one.
but i love ramen! :D

waited damn long for tat thingy.
sianzxcv.
sit there nth to do.
-.-
summore they dun let us have the 4 person's table.
nvm.

then went to buy popcorns!
the caramel one was (Y)!!
and went to shop at the big big hershey's store!
wooohoo!

then went into uss.
someone smuggled the popcorns in.
then his bag stink of popcorns.
nice ok.
LOL

went to merry go round! :D
haha.
i love it.
LOL!
ok i know its childish its lame.
but i like it.
LOL

then went to some roller coaster thingy.
quite abit fun la.
abit fun abit.

and went to see shrek 4D.
abit eww only lor.
splash water and all those.
zz

then went to some rollar coaster ride again.
50 mins queueing for 50 secs of fun.
win sia.
not scary one.
LOL

then bought ben & jerrys.
and chrysynthemum for me!
and Garrick bought lime juice.
obvly its sour pls. -.-
then we share the chrysynthemum.

then went to mummy ride!
it was.
idk.
scary la those statues.
-.-
those egyptian thingy.
waited super long for the mummy ride.
it was scary those fake mummies.
-.-
the ride was..
-.-
in total darkness.
ok it WAS thrilling.
and make me screamed like some mad woman acc to some ppl.
-.-
makes me dizzy too.
zz

then yep.
walked ard and took more pics! :D
and went to many shops but bought nth.

in the end bought a pin thingy.
pinned it on my bag now.
and poke a hole on my crumpler. D:
nvm worth it lol.

went to eat marche.
wasted lots of food coz no appetite.
ok lol.
sry Garrick! D:

went to sit at there for idk how long.
nice.
i love the view.
and the big fat cloud in the dark sky.

and then trained back.
haha.
long long mrt ride. (:
first time i actually enjoyed and LOVE mrt. :D

yep.
today was a sucky day.
nvm man who cares.
-.-

ok tats all.
im offf!
tadaaaa~~

im loving uss and mrt rides now. :D

goodbyes arent forever, it just means that i'll be missing you till we meet again.

anws.
yep.
today was.

hmm usual lor.
pe was fun.
floorballll!
long since i played.
then ya.

math was zz.
i dun like.
nvm.

then..
physics.
LOL nth much.
had fun drawing the ray diagrams and stuffs.

recess.
deprived me of food again.
ask some ppl help me buy nvr buy for me.
then heng help me buy.
thx tart! :D

then was chem..
so so.
boring.
almost fell asleep.

ok bio!!
FUN LIKE CRAP.
DISSECTION!!!
we were dissecting the sheep's heart.
my first reaction was like eeeeeeeeeee i dun want..
then i touched the heart and i was like omgggg ewww.
then aftr tat.
OMG SO FUN.
and we dissect and see the inside.
then me n ruonan had  a fun time dissecting and chopping it like mince meat.
omg really damn ew come to think of it.
damn fun lor srsly!! (Y)!!!!!
ok and i really had fun pplaying with it.
omg i sound so bloody and cruel.
-.-

then ya.
ss nth much.
the ltte thingy.

ya aftr sch.
went to clementi mrt coz he wanted to dk wad collect money or sth.
then trained to jrl.
-.-
took so damn long to decide.
really lor.
everytime liddat.

ok saw damn lots of ppl.
talk abt keeping a low profile..
ahh nvm la..

ok did mole.
eh i can do ok!
shows tat im smart. (Y)

ya then went to imm to eat.
like yea.
took 45 mins deciding wad to eat.
-.-
then went to ajisen! :D
which is like my favourite, but not his.
and some ppl eat damn fast can.
and spend half the time staring at me while i eat.
-.-
i feel like..
super pressurised.
and i suddenly feel so sry for the animals in the zoo.
-.-
but ok la.
i really love ramen.
ok i dun like japanese food, but i love ramen ttm.
u can feed me with ramen for one week and i'll stl be loving it. :D

ok lol.
i want to go pig alr.

oh great.
tmrw is 17th july.
UNIVERSAL STUDIOS HERE I COME! ;D

yay and i'll be going with like :D
so it will be more fun.
woottttts.

okk im really looking forward to it.
i waited for 3 week alr ok.
-.-

okie tats all le.
OMG USS! :D

im going to take a nice nice picture of me n put as my dp. :D

okie tats all.
bye peepos. :D

"To love is to risk not being loved in return. To hope is to risk pain. To try is to risk failure, but risk must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing."
Anonymous

nice quote?
i like sia. :D

anws.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY YUFENG SIR! ;D
HAPPY BRITHDAY CHANG SHENG! ;D

ok.
im here to share a very nice speech.
from President Obama.
the title is "our education, our future"

i really love some of the things he said, and it never failed to inspire me.
benny ng made us do this for translation, and i went to google for the video, and today he showed us again.
really, its inspiring.
go check it out.(:

"you cant let failures define you, you have to let your failures teach you.you have to let them show you what to do differently the next time."
nice?
and i totally agree with this mann! :D

ok..
tmrw gonna have a drilling session on mole.
D:
torture session.

anws.
today assembly was interesting.
they dressed up as couples.
funny.
LOL
and xiuzheng too!
hahaha.

munshiun took away my recess.
and make me so hungry.
deprived ppl of food.
zz D:
then no more strawberry pocky so i was feeling more DDD;
but ok then aftr tat everyone offered me some.. so yea.

im starting to like translation.
LOL!
i nvr tot i'll be saying tat.

i feel insecure.
everytime i think of wad will happen to us next year, i feel lost.

i created a tumblr.
for fun.
and its empty.

ok wdv.
im off.
bye peepos.

i guess i fell in love with our friendship...
(L)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY POR XIN RONG! :D

i will miss all the times we spent in lab doing experiments for stp and gl-ing lizhihao tgt and imitating his arrr and -.- look.
damn funny!
great times. (:

happy birthday, dun lame anm, grow up alr. :D
wooohooo~ must rmbr our thai express date with lizhihao too! :D

wed used to be one of my fav day of the week..
now?
i'll really be lying if i stl say tat.

today lessons were boring.
tired like zz
i dun like teachers who tap on ure shoulders when you are slping in cls.
ure lesson so boring, i so tired, so ofc slp lor.

ok nvm..
today geog test was ok..
but nornie scam us!
-.-
told us mostly on features then i go spam then end up only 6 out of 17 features.
-.-
win la, thx alot nornie.
thn others all got to rely on my past mye knowledge.
which i have long thrown away.

chem assesment was ok.
seems like somebody didnt stay up late for nothing to help me. (:
very late mehs, 11 plus only.
-.-

oh and i heard wad happened in hist.
walao laura khoo very gu yi sia.
lucky i dun take hist. :D

okkk...
i'm like super tired now.
been slping past one everyday.
i feel like crap.
-.-

zzzzz
im not gonna say anything abt parade today.

ok mabe i am, just abit.
-.-

helped evania with 4310 till keejeng came.
quite ok la.
-.-
scolding ppl makes me feel like super bad.
zzzzz

ok then pt.
wadeva ok.
yaya.
srsly.

thn aftr tat we did pumpings.
270.
-.-
win.
did 30 tgt and then the rest circuit.
quite fun.
i missed doing pumpings with 4108.

ok nvm i'll go do my homework now.
ITS PILING UP! -.-
damn.

ok lol.
i wont give in so easily.
i wont give up so easily.

for when i give up, im not only giving up on myself.
im giving up on his hope,
giving up on all the hope he pinned on me.
giving up on all the efforts he took to help me.
giving up on everything he did for me.
giving up on everything he wants me to be.

oh?
so you do care?
okay, im very surprised speckled with a lil bit of shock now.

its tough.
its tough hanging on when every nerve in your body is screaming for you to give up.
its tough hanging on when everyone no longer believes in you and all they know is you are doing badly now.

its tough ok?
nobody told me that its going to be easy,
BUT NOBODY TOLD ME THAT ITS GOING TO BE THIS HARD EITHER!

they only know how to stand ard and say you are so kelian.
i dont need your pity ok?
i never did and will never need that.

tell me to hang on.
tell me not to give up.
tell me that i once believed that nothing is impossible.
remind me of all these whenever i feel like giving it up..

yes,
now its both.
both things i used to be great in are now challenging and making my life hard.

idk la.
and damn him.
zz
you promised to be there to listen to me when i need you.
and where the hell are you now.
ya right.
thx alot.
again, i dun need your empty promises.

yes, ok.
i have to buck up.
and be stronger.

keep the faith.
and believe that yes, Karhui CAN do it.

ok lol.
this kind of positive thinking dk which cutie teach me one.
-.-
lets hope that it works..

i will show you.
i will be strong.
i will not cry.
& i'll prove it to you that you are wrong.

ok wadeva la.
sry blog, i wrote too much here.
i will private it soon.

when hating becomes indifference, there is no turning back.

heyy..

today was ...

morning my mum dragged me go for art lesson.
stl ok la at least painting makes me happy and at ease.

aftr tat went to sch for yog rehearsal.
met lijie at mrt and walked to sch tgt.
another gl one who always gl me. ):

haha then yea.
board the bus.
they split us into our groups.

sat with my zuo si. :D
talk crap.
LOL
she's another jiao one.
why all the ppl i know liddat oneee. :///

anws.
it was pretty slacked.
omg sch of dance ppl are ENTHU TTM!!!!!
if you use a meter to measure their enthu-ness, it will break.
srs.
they are like.
ENTHU.
and haha.
funny sia.
xiuzheng and keejeng were like so scared of them.
u shld have seen keejeng's face.
super funny and cute. xD

and those dancers make me n zuo si .....
and goosebumps all over.
LOL

but i really admire their enthusiatic lvl.
yea, i will be enthu on tat day..
but bfr that..
hard sia.

can u imagine KarHui going round being enthu and jumping like some crazy girl?
i cant.
-.-

anws.

JIAYOUS NC AND AA! :D

jiayous Grace, Felicia, Evania, Lynette, Tseyan!
and Xiuzheng, Keejeng, Meldrick, Elias, Peixuan!

wadeva your resutls, we are proud of you.
give your best ok! :D
special lucks to Keejeng and Felicia, get best s2/cpr/wadeva u call it! :D

yep, ok tats all.
bye peepos.

ok LOL
today was..
idk how to say.

lessons boring.
supposedly 3 consecutive spa.
luckily bo!
cause pandian dw spa today, wasson nvr come, so only got bio.
ss was ok.
and saw nvr come too, so no pe.

aftr sch was.

thanks ah.
ask me go out hod room wait for you.
joykoh saw, rani saw..
puayhoon asked me who i waiting for. -.-
so much for being low profile, even qianling saw.
...

188 to vivo!
bus shaky.
-.-
but it was pretty fast.
abt half an hour.

went to watch movie.
took so long to choose.
in the end chose predators.
nc 16 movie.
LOL ok this is like my first time watching some nc 16 movie.
its like 4.30 but there's like so many ppl watching, its practically crowded.
i dun like lol.
i prefer it being empty.
anws.
its a really cool movie!
highly recommended! (Y)
but its full of vulgar and they kp using the F word.
-.-
but stl..
and its anti-climax.
LOL

quite nice la.
then trained back to gombak.
crowded again.
funny LOL dk who squeezed so many ppl.

then aiya.
zzzzz some things happened..
D:
stupid way to end such a nice day.

thx ah for making my day. (:
really fun, will be more fun if you stop gl-ing me. -.-
yes, my leg ok, my motion sickness ok dun need kp asking.

and im not some spoilt princess la.. ):
everyone pls stop saying that.

zzzzz
coz of tat stupid audience ldr rehearsal i got to cancel my date tmrw.
D;
zzzzz
unfair.

nvm lol at least i went out today, shall look forward to next sat! :D
optimistic me. -.-

ok LOL i shld really continue writing my write up.
editting now.
ps jt for making u wait so long.
D:

ok, bye peeps.
no i dun like agnes. D:

hey..

yep im feeling ok now..
ok, mabe not really well, but at least btr than ytd.
yaya credits to you la.
(:

aftr talking for idk how many hours, he make me smile for the first time tat day.
LOL
nice hor.
smart achievement.
yaya next time can be mood therapist with plushie.
but stl ya.
ok so you are like super dumb and not smart enough to know that i feel like crap.
-.-
do i really have to tell u everything.
-.-

anws.
hope that you are well.
LOL
dun emo cant watch despicable me.
-.-
lets watch tat agnes tmrw then.
get well soon!
dun fall sick eh.
ltr no one bring me go universal studios. D:

hmm today.
sch was ok.
slackish. :D
our only slacky day in a week!

today was funny.
sex ed.
haha we went round sharing solutions in beaker as in tats casual sex.
LOL
ppl were like looking at us wondering what we are doing.
i exchanged with kelvin, zhihui, oscar.
and im stl pure.
HAHA.
:D
LOL
anws i think this is a waste of time, thou quite fun.
watch videos btr la.
(:

LOL
oh today was funny.
HAHA CHANG SHENG GERMANY LOST!
SPAIN FTW! :D
hahahaha.
so wad if torres was benched, the thing is, spain won germany.
ok lol but sad for torres. :/

aftr sch went sjab hq with chunny.
then bought collar pin and went to subway eat! :D
haha.

thx alot chunny!
i just realised that my sense of direction isnt just bad..
its really epic-ly bad. -.-
LOL

nvm la some ppl's since of direction is as bad as mine, if not worse.
haha. :D

ya anws.
thx alot Jingwen and Chunny!
and Daph.
LOL crapping in the middle of the night abt useless stuffs.
so like you. :D

anws.
ok lol i go write my write up alr.
stl left some.
zzzzz i write until nth to write.
i've written abt taiwan trip for idk how many time alr.

ok yea.
tats all bahs.
cya peeps.
eh dun fall sick ok!
u wont be seeing this but nvm la. -.-
LOL

someone who sees the pain in your eyes when everyone believes in the fake smile.

please dun highlight and read if you dk me well.
ok, no just dun read. -.-


wadeva.

oral was EPIC SHIT.
zzzzzz
the topic seems easy peasy.
the Qs are like wadeva.
zzzz
even liverpool jacket doesnt help.
-.-
but thx anws.
-.-

parade was.
zzzzz
wadeva wadeva.
cant write it here yaya.

pt was screwed.
EPIC.
zzzzzz
dammit.

zz
i cant promise next pt will be btr,
idk.
I REALLY DUNNO.

can i just dun give a damn?

but anws,
wad can possibly be worse than this.
zz

does it kill for you to just care a lil bit more?
very hard issit.
zzzzzz

oh great, in this kind of mood, i have to continue with my write up for Taiwan trip.
thx ah.
-.-

the homework to hand in tmrw is like ~!@#$A!#~1

wadeva.
issit that you really dun care, or you really dunno.
dun tell me u really dunno.
its -.-

menses cramp all day make me pain like crap.
during oral it makes me worse, and the hall is like so cold.
then i tot pt got someone take over, cause i tot i'll be late.
then no so i had to do pt feeling crap and the pain almost killed me when we were running.

yea,
and i asked someone to help me buy chocolates but he didnt.
ok nt ure fault la ok.
but stl.

today wld have been much btr with chocs and ice-creams.

my mum dun lemme eat ice cream coz of menses.
zzzzz
my stress buster gone. -.-
chocolates also no more.
wadeva.

i dun feel like eating anything else.
wdv lor.
zz

ok bye.
please dun read this.

you used to care abt me so much.
now wad?
who am i in ure heart.
do oyu know tat you alone can just make me feel so much btr?
zz

do you really dunno, or do you simply dun care?
FML.

SORRY...

i cant do that.
i have no confidence of getting that.
im really sorry..
sorrry, im not as strong as what you think.

zzzzz

oral tmrw.
dammit.
i hate orals. D:
and as yknow, my vocab rocks like crap.
so yea.
win liao.
-.-

today sizing even more win.
tat person measured us in frnt of guys.
wtheck.
then he said out our measurements SO LOUDLY!
and i was feeling so wth. -.-

and thx alot lor.
telling us only today sat got rehearsal.
win liao.
why they so efficient one ah??

ok im done ranting.
-.-

tmrw oral, so maybe going sjab late or not going.

anws.
zzzzzzzzzzzzzz

THERE GOES MY SATURDAY.
wtheck.
why cant they give us the whole schdule????
i really dun und.
zz
does it kill to be JUST A LIL BIT more efficient?

if next sat got rehearsal, im not going.
-.-
i really wont go.

anws.
wadeva..

zzz i feel like ........................
ahh zzzzz nvm cant write here.

so restricted.

anws oral sucks ttm, ttc.
and yea.
im not gonna study.
puhlease, you study 3000 topics mabe not even one come out.
-.-
so worth it.

aiya.
the thing is.
chinese just sucks.
my languages sucks.
so yea?
nvm lor.

anws yea wdvvvvvv.

im like super sian abt oral.
DDDDDDDDDDDD:
i hate oral.
DDD:

ok LOL
i shant rant here anm.
-.-

bye peeps. ttyl.
going to your wall is such a torture seeing all those things there.

heyhey! :D

lalalala.
ok.

anws.
17th july going universal studios!! :D
okok.
i hope i hope really can go this time.
dun make me happy for nth again.

supposed to go this sat, nvm can find sth equally fun to do de rite. :D

nvm LOL

tmrw got sch.
sianzxcv.
zzzzzz
nvm la.
i will look forward to sattt! :D
then aftr tat its like nfac.
awwwww. D:

anws.
thanks for ure concern peeps!
im fine now!
totally.
yayy! :D

tmrw is the attire sizing for yog audience ldrs.
LOLL!
ok tats all.
bye peepos. :D

zz.
stupid flu bug. D:

eh eh felicia.
sorryyyyyy lehs. D:
i know i told u i will be going today.
but i didnt.
IM SO SORRYYY S2!
:/
dui bu qiii! D:
aiya.
zz

ytd was stl ok..
so i went to sch.
but ytd night temp rose again.
ya, mabe hor is coz somebody screaming and yelling at me while watching the brazil holland match. -.-
then my mum say if tmrw morn stl as bad i cant go.
yea then..
so i smsed chiching and told her in the morning.
sry nc. :/

today was zz
sleep; eat; sleep; eat.
im sick of not eating normal food.
zz
and i spam medicine till i feel like puking when i smell food. -.-

but the good thing is!
1) no piano lessons for me! :D
2) i will be skinner. (hopefully) -.-
3) im getting btr, i hope.

ya but at least.
temp isnt rising, and slowly decreasing.

who says sick ppl cnnt use comp.
dumb rule.

im sick of being sick. -.-
i must get btr.

Ms Chng lend me a book.
its one of nan hua el dept book.
its call the best i could by subhas anandan.
you know, that super famous criminal defence lawyer in sg?
that indian guy.
ya.
its like super nice.
and it was my only entertainment today.
talk abt self entertainment. -.-
ok, apart from the dumb "poop-shaped" plushies and dolphins along with all other soft toys..
zz.
but ya.
i haven finish reading, left few chapts..
but i like the book!
seeing the p.o.v of the criminals,
and realising how media influence the way the public see a case and the criminal.
and how untrue these media are sometimes.
anw its a very good book.
i can pass it on to you if you want, just ask from me. (:

it reminds me of my ambition when i was like very young.
i wanted to be a lawyer..
i really admired the way lawyers defend their clients, esp those criminal defence lawyer.
so i wanted to study hard and get in uni get a degree and eventually be a lawyer.
but then.
since i started secondary sch,
i see my career options broadening.
then yea..

luckily mon no sch.
i have one day to do hw.
zz

anws i lost my collar pin.
owe 50. zz
got to wait till next sun then can get.

ok lol.
i want to bath now.
thou its damn cold.
then im going to watch telly since i cant do any work.
i feel like an invalid.
zzzzzz

yea ok.
bye peeps.
thx alot. where were you when i was feeling like shit?

倔强说不痛 假装什么伤都没有



倔强抬起头 决不让眼泪往下流

today lvl test was shit.
-.-
plus i did it with this stupid head aching like crapp.
nvm.
ok lol.

ytd was like epic.
flu whole day.
make me feel like crap.
D:
and i slept during cls.
LOL

then aftr sch went west mall mac do log.
walao log is like.
epic.
i cant even get one Q right.
ahhhhhhh.
and he teach me until he say his blood boiling soon. :0
ok, my log sucks.
nvm..

yea then went home slp and do more log.
-.-
even thou i hate log,
i stl got do ok.
dammit.

today is like.
hmmmm.
boring boring.
i absorbed nth, and medicine made my head groggy and make me sleepy.
el we did oral comm.
my grp was on teenage dating.
suan me like mad. -.-
but i think our grp is zai ok! (Y)
we can answer all those Qs wor. :D
i think oral comm is very interesting.
and yea, just tat we have a free-loader in the grp. -.-
THANKS CHICHING YOU SAVED MY DAY BY HELPING ME PRINT!!:D
hmm but translation..
i like benny ng!
he let us do homework when he talking.
he's the first teacher to do tat! (Y)
cause he say he know we listening.
i am ok.
pro multi-tasker here. LOL

oh ya, must put at least one smile on cyber everyday.
ok lor.

:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
satisfied?

i love his jacket mann.
LOL
it reminds me of torres.

idk wad to believe.
i see it with my own eyes and i have to accept it.
irdk.
it makes me feel insecure, very.
i dont like this feeling..

anws.
ppl have been bugging me to put tagboard.
shld i?

erase those disappointments from your face, bury them deep inside.
blink back those tears in your eyes, let the wind carry them away.
tear away those sulking mouth, stick on a bright smile.
never look back, live for the present and future.
just pretend that you never care, live as if no one can hurt you.
act like nothing can haunt you, act like you are perfect.
even if they are leading in front, dont let them know.
the race isnt over yet, you can still win... anytime.
remember, the game only stop at the final whistle.

believe in yourself, work hard towards it.
girl, you can do it. (:
ahh idk how much of it is true.
yeayea.
i will work hard.
5As for ct2.
new hersheys plushie! :D
then eoy is ahh.
nvm.

yea.
will work hard ok.
yea yea.
i feel like some freaking no life mugger.
ahhhh.
i want the sec 2 me back.
D:
but..

thank you for believing in me;
thank you for motivating me;
thank you for pushing me on when i feel like giving up;
thank you for your care & concern;
thank you for your love & kindness;
thank you for not shunning away when im in a bad mood;
thank you for being there through these times;
thank you for beng my listening ear;
thank you for giving me advice;
thank you for helping me w/o expecting nothing in return;
thank you for understanding me btr than my parents;
thank you for making sure that im feeling fine;
thank you for pulling me up when i fell down;
thank you for ensuring that i do not stay up all night emo-ing;
thank you for entertaining me;
thank you for making me smile;
thank you for accepting me for who i am;
thank you even though you may not see this,
thank you for everything, everything you did for me.
thank you for.. the list is endless.

i owe you too much...

i really appreciate those stuffs u did for me.
idk how to even thank you for them.
i'll miss you when you're gone.
really really..

idk what will become of me if not for you.

ok, yea.
Karhui promise to work hard.
D:

ya.
empty promise is sth i'll nvr make.
(:

thanks alot pig! :D

ok, im done with blogging.
i think my blog is epic.
boring.
LOL

好奇也别去探索　妒嫉只能深锁

byeeee. karhui is offf! :D