disappointment.

yet another one.
how many more?
i bet lots.

today was fine.
and it turned sucky.
zz

pe was fun.
floorball.
Denise sprained her ankle.
get well soon!

hcl test was damn zz today.
i think stl ok..
i can guess the meaning.
but for more than 50% of the Qs, i guessed the answers.
idk la.
zz

then english.
Mr Chiong's first lesson.
he quite ok la.
so nervous.

went for recess.
i hate thursday recess.
got to change then eat.
waste of time and the queue is epic-ly long.
only managed to eat waffle.
no way im going to gobble down my food and choke again like last week.
-.-

then yea.
assembly.
interesting i guess.
the edc quite drama.
oh well they are drama club ppl.
then the rest boring.
-.-

then math.
at cr 17.
now im loving math lessons.
he's so slack!
and i can slp and msg for all i want.
-.-
and yet learn.
he teach at a damn slow pace, unlike puayhoon.

ok lunch was damn zz.
nvm.
its not the first time wad, nth surprising.

then yea.
translation was pretty fun.
we had a competition.
Lijie Ruonan Huishi Sherralin Liyin Zhihui Junwei Fred Chang Sheng and me in one grp.
then yea.
we leading most of the time.
smart ppl.
LOL

i nvr bin cao cao ok.
-.-
ok fine, but mabe just a lil.
and im left wondering why it's me who feels like im the one to blame.
zz

i fail at disappoinment managment. -.-
nvm.

even my mum said nth to me when she fetched me aftr sch.
i guess my face is really black like thunder or sth.
but yea.
its brewing up a storm inside.
zz

i just hate disappointment.
HATE DISAPPOINTMENT.
plainly hate those freaking disappointed feeling.

its like the feeling you get when ure heart sinks into ure shoes.
its like the feeling, watching your anticipations turning into dust.
its not a nice feeling, its not a happy feeling.
not at all.
its a sucky feeling,
making you feel like life is against you.
feeling like crap and feeling like slapping the next person who dares to provoke you.
-.-

thx for making me happy... for nothing.
dammit.
why does life have to be so unfair.
i hate it when you dun sms me first.
i hate it when you are feeling moody and refused to tell me.
i hate it when you break off a date w/o a reason.
i hate it when you gimme one word answer.
i hate it when you dun say hi to me or smile at me when u are with ure frens.
i hate it when you dunno when im pissed at you.
i hate it when you do nth when im pissed at you.
most of all, i hate it when you disappoint me.
sometimes, i just need you to show that you care, a lil more.

only the one that hurts you can make you feel better.
only the one that inflicts the pain can take it away.

ok nvm.
i btr go finish my homework and stop slacking.
my mum is srsly going to kill me if i give her crappy results in ct2 again.
-.-
thx alot mum.
-.-

i dun like studying.
i dun feel happy when im studying.
but for the sake of my future,
for the sake of my parents,
and for the sake of not disappointing him,
i will.
study.
study real hard. (srs!)
and be real good. (jk -.-)

ok nvm.
i'll go make mushroom soup for myself ltr.
-.-
or find some ramen instant noodle to eat.
-.-
to make me happy and cheer me up.
nvm.

i guess im a just bad, too-demanding, unreasonable girl.
):

nvm.
bye.

its tiring being angry at someone you love so much, very very tiring.