thanks for looking down on me,
thanks for rubbing salt onto my bleeding wound,
thanks for mocking at me when i fell,
thanks alot.
you are such a damn great friend.

zz.
im bueysong like zzzzz today.

nvm.
tmrw got the stupid emath test.
dammit.
-.-

who cares mann.
srsly.
zz
im not gonna study for tat stupid test.
neither will i study for the cep test.
-.-
common la.
cep is essay and writing like based on the situation.
how he expect us memo.
lame.

LOL
i rmbr at the start of the year,
how demoralised i used to feel when i didnt get A1 for tests and how i wld cry sometimes and be like super disappointed.
-.-
great, how am i going to get A1 when i didnt study well rite?
good point.

now im like super indifferent.
zz

dont blame it on him pls, he's a good fren to me, not a bad influence.
though yea, sometimes.
but dont push the blame onto him.
zz

i found myself asking me the same Q over and over again.
is sarificing my studies for fac really worth it?
and great, oh so great.
cause in the end, we stl didnt get champs.
im so sry for screwing up woundcare in hn.
im really sry.
k mabe not really screwed, but its nt the best.
but mabe mabe,
just mabe, if not for tat we wld have gotten first.
haiz idk.

k yea, mabe its my fault not for juggling fac and my studies well,
but yea.
is either i commit to fac or studies, it cant be both.

so in the end,
its just.
MY FAULT.
my damn fault for being such a great disappointment.
zz

haiz yea,
anws.
fac is over, no point dwelling in the past.
haiz.

i guess i just have to mug like shit for ct2 and eoys.
haiz.
60% at stake, i cant afford to lose it anm.
zz

ofc there will be ppl who will laugh when my results are crappy,
but wdv mann.
laugh la.
go ahead and laugh.
idc.
-.-

idk how im going to face everything when i get back my report book.
imagine from 2nd to idk wad shit.
zzzzzzz

thanks alot mann.
thanks for rubbing salf onto my wound.
thanks alot.

and srsly, SHUT THE HELL UP IDIOT.
zz

so yea, mabe im as smart as wad everyone thinks.
idk how im going to get back all the A1s.
truth is, i didnt mug alot last year.
things were like easy to me and all i have to do was to pay attention in cls and i can ace.
zz
now?
forget it..

i cant complain,
i chose this route myself.

zz wadeva.

so tired of all these competiting.
so sick of all the mockings.

haiz zz
i really dont want my report book this time..
really really..

i want to be strong enough to face up to all these.
i want to be clever enough to not let ppl affect me.

i just want to be the happy cheerful crazy karhui..
issit that hard...?