why do you have to walk out on me?? why?? why??? you promised..

i hate it.
srsly.

i dont want to be think of it, let alone be reminded of it.


stop it.
stop it.
seriously.
stop it.

zzz

okay, if you arent prepared for any crap, blahblah.
stop scrolling down and reading this.
i mean it.

camp is lyk..
thurs.
zz

it will be fun, i noe.
but but.
haiz.

i haven finished my hols h/w.
zz

now im preparing the ppt and script for the stp.
why am i doing this when im nt going idk.
i didnt noe tat ldr have to do all the saikang work.
okay, so maybe im not going, so the more i shld do.
zz idk.

im really very sian.
haiz.

i really wanted so much to be good, do my best, work harder...
i want to be good,
be how you want me to be.

isnt this wad i've always be living for?
isnt this the world i've be living in?
your expectations, their expectations, everyone's expectations..
my expectations?
my expectations have became yours, but they never mine.

you never praise me ; its okay.
you never appreciated it ; its fine.
but you shldnt say i didnt work hard, i didnt try hard.
you are never ever satisfied.
damn it.
even when i got first, all you say was, you can do btr.
damn it.
what is EVER enough?

say la.
tell me la.
i give you la.

"i ran away, waiting for you to run aftr me.. but you didnt.."
"i did.. but i was too slow.. and i didnt catch up with you.."

zzzzzzzz
so this is how you define love.

i dont want to talk to you.
shut the hell up.

zzzzzz
wadevva la.

okay fac is really very near too.
very very near.

dunno la.

damn it.
i really dont wann think about it, can you just shuddap?

zzzzzzzzzzzz

fine.
i've spammed enough crap here.
so i shall go.